my cancer update,,

 

To days Doctors appointments have come and gone and the news that I was expecting was true. I cant help but feel a little lost, its really not had a chance to sink in yet. However in the morning I have an appointment for a PET scan. I'm scheduled for a double mastectomy July 22!! I keep thinking I will wake up from this nightmare but instead it is becoming more real...

I cant bear to see the pain in my mothers eyes or the Questioned look on Eva Laurens face. Darrell is once again my rock that I lean on. Going thur it a second time doesn't make it any easier, if anything maybe a littler more difficult..

Thank you to all my friends and family for your support. Keep me and my family on your prayer list.

things i did this sunday

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got up early expecting to go to work when the phone rang and the hospital called me off for the day, YES !!!,I went back to bed, Latter Darrell and I went to the houseboat and really enjoyed the cooler weather,,,,The high was 90 and breezy!!


chase came by after work to say hi


Charis and logan eating pancakes that Nana made for them..




Schautzie walking on the dock making sure everyone knows that is HER DOCK

 

Charis having fun on the houseboat,, she is blowing me kisses

 

 

Darrell washing his hair the redneck yacht club way Look at his hand !!!!!!

 

I enjoyed my day relaxing in the sun and sharing my raft with Schatuzie !!!!

Please Lord not again !!!!

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This morning I woke up with that knot in the pit of my stomach.. Not again !! Could what I have feared the most be happening again??

YES, it is....

Monday I have an appointment with CARTI and with my Surgeon to discuss what options I have.. "Options" is such a mixed up word...choices, decisions, none of which I want to be facing right now.. I don't have the time to slow down and put my life on pause to focus on a disease.

Today I took a personal day off at work. I just don't have the heart to take care of patients right now. Can you say DEPRESSION ? I know this will pass and Ill get thru this one also.. until then I'm being selfish and staying home and enjoying my beautiful home and family..

my mammogram

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My six month mammogram yesterday revealed calcification in a new area. What does that mean ? I'm afraid to say. My natural response is to jump to conclusions and think the worst. Right now I'm just waiting for the surgeon to give me a call.






I was at the hospital for 4 hours having a mammogram, ultrasound, and lab work. They ended up doing 6 mammograms and two ultrasound to make sure!! Then the Radiologist came in herself and did the final ultrasound and showed me the area and discussed the next step....... Right now I'm angry... Not knowing for sure isn't helping. Did I go thru 3 surgeries 6 months of chemotherapy and 40 radiation treatments for nothing????

Darrells update!!

 

Darrell's hand surgery went well on Wednesday. It took 2 hours for the surgery and 1 hour post op and then we were on our way back home. The hospital was so very nice and the people were so helpful..

Springfield was under sever heat advisory with the heat index of 105 !!!

We stopped in Branson and meet up with the gang for lunch.. Aunt Pat and Uncle James, Cecil and Sandy and mom and dad. We all ordered milk shakes, they were so good!! by the time we got home it was after 5pm. Darrell took pain meds but wasn't hurting to bad.

Now post op day one he is having more pain. His hand is in a big cast-like thing that he cant take off till he goes back to the Dr on July 9. That means that he cant get it wet on the 4 th of July... That will be very difficult for him to do !!!

Today I had my mamogram(again). Ill post on that later

Darrells hand !!! warning graphic pic !!!!

Its been 7 weeks since Darrells accident with the table saw. We are headed to Springfield today for his surgery very early in the am..

He is so ready to get this done... hopefully the pain will stop.. he is so tired of hurting. The index finger has almost healed, and after they put in his artificial knuckle that can start healing... yea!!!

Say a prayer for us !!!

 

 

 

Fried Green Tomatoes

 

 

 

Easy old time favorite!!!
slice green tomatoes
salt and pepper
batter with corn mil mix
pan fry !!

Delicious
tomatoes from Dads !! YUM, YUM,

 

Great fathers make great husbands, and great men !!

more fun on the Gaudalupe

Aaron up in the tree !!


Hannah, Luke and Honey

ON Tour Sadie and Sally !!

Sadie and Sally were stealing the show in Texas !! These two were flying high and having a great time.. Only the best for these two.. Its funny my parents never had a pet before, but now they call these my sisters :) They don't know they arnt human and I'm not going to be the one who breaks the secrete!!
they will steal your heart as they sing and dance for you!

 

 

Daddy's big Bass

 

Father's Day

Camping in south Texas on the Guadalupe River


Dad doing what he loves best DRIVING !! Pete's nice ride!!


Happy fathers day!

I know that not many fathers are bloggers and will never see all the nice things that we say about them !!
These pic are of my Dad and Aubrey {Pete} last month on the Guadalupe River in Texas !!
Mom and Dad spent a couple weeks visiting with family and friends and really had a great time..

When I got my new camera I gave my old one to mom, she loves it and I get to see the pic when they get back..

Dads' not feeling so good these days, not sure what is going on with him.. He just doesn't have the pep that he had last year (me either)

Tomorrow we are grilling at home for Fathers Day, then Mom, Dad and Eva Lauren are heading to Branson to meet with Aunt Pat Uncle James, Cecil and Sandy.

Kirk (brother) is here from Texas.

Garrett and Mallory

 

 

 

 

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a quick post with scenic route paper!!!!!!!

I was going thru my stacks of paper and was inspired by this scenic route paper that Ive had a while... It only took a few min for these layouts.. how does that happen ?? Usually it takes me forever just to get started...

oh well, now its off to Mt Home to run some errands while Eva is in her Hopkito class..